First Day

When I arrived on Thursday, the first thing I saw was my name on the door. Instead of feeling delighted, I felt depressed. It reminded me of when I saw my name on the door when I went to college in 1995 (which at the time, did make me feel delighted). This time it just made me feel old. It also made me feel like I had come full circle in 15 years. I know I should've felt happy but I was all sorts of emotions on Thursday. And I was also exhausted from all my travels (and from having packed up and moved mounds of stuff!)

The mattress is wrapped in a vinyl covering that you can't remove. While this makes sense for sanitary purposes, it makes for a rather slippery, and uncomfortable bed. A couple hours into it I was so exhausted I just laid down without any bedding. The bed was pushed up against the wall and I looked at the moving clouds in the sky and over at the empty bookshelf past my feet. Again, instead of feeling delighted, I panicked and thought, "MY GOD, WHAT HAVE I DONE?"

Something about the corner of the room was depressing. I felt imprisoned, and again, like I haven't "grown up" and that I have regressed to living like a college student (which is ridiculous, because back home I was sleeping on a twin bed pushed up against a corner!)

So even though I was pretty tired, I got up and moved the furniture around. I feel satisfied with the result.

It's still a work in progress, but I feel better about it. I moved the bed away from the wall, and rolled the little nightstand/drawer thingy and the floor lamp to the space in between the wall and the bed. I also moved the "fridge station" and "dining table" to create my little breakfast nook.

I ordered a duvet which should be coming Monday or Tuesday. And then I'll have to figure out something to add a "splash" of color to my room. (Unfortunately I ordered a duvet in a boring cream color). I picked up some bath rugs and towels in green from Target (thanks to all my friends and relatives who gave me Target gift cards!) so that my bathroom looks a little more homey. It's only been two days and already my room feels a lot better and I also feel better all around.